Yeah, okay I get it... with still life it is all about the details. I used to hate that. I just wanted everything to be expressive and to embrace the imperfections. I will never be a photorealist, but since I've been working as a designer my eagle eye for details has developed and I can't go back.
Works on Paper
Sometimes to get back into it I have to go big.
Grab a new piece of paper and just start and see how it turns out. Now that I've started my first skull and I see how it is visually working, I need to practice. That means drawing and sketching a lot more so I am comfortable with the form. Also playing with small-scale paintings to get the watercolor just right. Find where the drips are work and figure out the whole depth thing.
When I work on a small scale I find I am less precious about the work. If it's not working then I'll start over. The key here is repetition. Through repetition hopefully I'll land on a visual language that will inform and improve my larger pieces once I get there.
I just got to get there.
It's been fun getting all of the work together. Seeing where I've been makes me excited to find where i'm going.
Color series and Black & White are starting to come into their own. I can't wait to get back in the studio and see where it all takes me.
it has been 7 years since i had last played in a world of full abstraction. i’ve always had motifs or a horizon line to ground the work. something brains could recognize and then interpret.
now, there is just color, water, and paper. though there is simplicity in supplies the output is complex. the nature of water is fluid but stubborn. it will pick a path to flow and never want to deviate. it moves the color with it. pulling it down and dripping it off the paper. it will pool up and settle into the paper at it’s own rate. the colors soak into the page in unpredictable ways.
these paintings are of the stroke of color field where color itself becomes the subject. when there is only color that informs the painting the viewer is left to read into the emotion the piece provokes.
reading and judging the work has become subjective – pieces i hate others love. it is forcing me to work off of intuition more than my educated eye. this challenge in ambiguity is well worth the energy. the body of work is an exploration into unknown territory. it is terrifying and freeing at the same time.
the only way is onward.
all the paintings had dried and it was time for me to face them. to evaluate them.
making is the fun part but meaning is what it is all about.
i lined them all up against the wall and looked at them together. each different than i remembered. some were further along than others but there was one i just had no idea what to do with. that is when you just let it be.
i pulled out my artist journal and started writing down what i saw. as i did this my mind kept circling around two words: ethereal* and celestial**.
all my previous bodies of work have dealt with the terrestrial life. landscape inspired. heavily focused on earth elements.
when i set out to do this body of work i knew i would be jumping of a ledge and now i find myself among air, space, and water. i am anything but grounded and gravity seems irrelevant – floating seems more appropriate.
amid the thoughts and reflection a new direction was found for late bloomer no. 3.
*ethereal : lacking material substance, relating to the regions beyond earth
**celestial : suggesting divinity or heavens, relating to the sky, mythical being
5 paintings started. 3 solid starts. 2 mess ups. 1 cover up.
for some the blank white page is terrifying. for me, getting started is easy – it’s continuing that is hard.
with watercolor you go in spurts. paint furiously. dripping, splattering, bleeding pigments into one another and then pause. it can take hours for it to fully dry. you leave that piece and start on another. although you’ve stopped working on the paper, the watercolor has not. colors are settling and soaking as water evaporates.
no matter how you left it, the painting always looks different when you come back to it.
in these moments you have to reevaluate, reconsider, and redirect where you are going. this is the hard part.
but i’ll deal with that tomorrow.